I need this Ol' train

to Breakdown... I cant understand. I have heard this song 49 times non-stop today and havent stopped as yet. Have I finally lost it!! I think I have

Song: what do u think I am listening to?????
mood: suprisingly relaxed!

can you prove it??

“Life is a Bitch and then you die”

I have been pondering over the issue of why I take everything so seriously, jokes, to be laughed at, things that need to be side stepped, inconsequential things. A thin line separating cynic and a skeptic as both of them question everything that comes their way. The very first statement which I know, probably live by, is totally exaggerated is a statement by a dead pessimist.
A cynic is will probably never be disappointed, as they know/feel that the worst things are on a crash course in a trajectory to them. Nice thought indeed, sounds like panacea, never to be disappointed, never to expect anything to happen, and anything that does happen, is thus a bonus.
The world in itself a total conundrum and has the acerbity which can be totally vexing. You can pish your way without achieving anything useful. The result, unless you happen to be clairvoyant, you are confused, lost and a very unpleasant feeling akin to panic. A cynic will never put himself in this position.
A cynics view may sound entirely altruistic self involved, devoid of feelings, but I reckon it is a way of dealing with soul-searching, trying to find peace with ones self, with incessant questioning everything that comes their way. Where cynicism lies, pessimism persists.
An egotist, egocentric, anti-social and / or arrogant individual from childhood will hardly ever turn cynical. The normally end up as skeptics, who I personally would steer clear from. Though however cynical you might be, like I do most of the time tell myself, no matter how cynical you get, it is impossible to keep up. A catch-22 where in you possibly cant win.
The cynic and the skeptic have two views of the world. The views may be close, but they never meet. The difference in the questions put forth by both is that, a skeptic questions everything, but cynic is a smart to question the things pertaining to him. Skepticism questions what we know and how we know it. Skeptic believes that there can never be a fact/premise without a logical scientific explanation. A Skeptic may sometimes question just for the heck that he has to question. The confrontation of a skeptic and a cynic is very entertaining. In my experience this has always ended up in dead-lock with slander and lot of entertainment for onlooker.
Cynicism in a way has a sour connotation, but has made me a wee bit careful in the way I would normally deal with things. I think my “deep thought”(as my friend deej puts it) is not entirely a bad thing as I thought it was. I also learnt my confusion is not confusion but my ability to question things.

Strumming along!!!

Songs I have learnt to strum n hum in the past year.

1. Good people

2. Breakdown

3. sitting wishing waiting ( All the three Jack Johnson)

4. CCR- Down to the corner

5. Somewhere over the rainbow (Israel Kam-something)

6. (RHCP) Under the bridge

7. road tripping

8. scar tissue

9. (REM) – Find the river

10. losing my religion

11. man on the moon

12. The sidewinder sleeps tonight

13. The Boxer ( SnG)

14. (thin lizzy) Whiskey in the Jar

15. (DMB) satellite

16. Crash into me

17. Thank you (Dido)

18. (Clapton) – Tears in heaven

19. Wonderful tonight

20. layla ( just the intro)

21. Blackbird ( the beatles)

My old favorites which i always seem to play when I pick up my guitar,

• (Pink Floyd) – Wish you were here

• Goodbye blue sky

• comfortably numb

• Coming back to life

• (Ozzy) - Mama I am coming home..

• (Greenday) -Time of your life

• Basketcase- obviously

• Last Kiss ( pearl Jam)

• Runaway train ( soul asylum)

wave effect again

wave effect again
Originally uploaded by Dontpanix.

The wave effect. On the way to Isle of Arran. The glossy waves makes you feel that we are in a studio, infact it is on the ferry and i think is picture perfect.
My trip to the Isle of arran was good but marred by a wee (I would like to down play this) incident where in all the six of "us" 'Pakis' could have landed up in the hospital with bodily mayhem and knives or bottles sticking out from us. The xenophobic racist attack on us was not the crazy part of the ordeal, but amazed me was how group dynamics worked during that one and half hours. When the tempers flare and reproaching others, trying to get yourself heard is a indeed a difficult thing. Keeping quiet was infact the best thing to do. I dont think that is the way the group dyamics has to work. Being calm, having the presense of mind to deal with problems always disappears during crisis such as the one we had. I have seen this happen in more than one occasion. But I am glad, that we could flag cops down and escort us to our hostel, safely.
Ho, yea other thing to add, my deja vus scare me. They happen way too frequently.

fighter shetty

fighter shetty
Originally uploaded by Dontpanix.

This had to be blogged. Umesh aka boda.